BoteJook

Thursday, April 06, 2006 / 12:48 PM

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RAHHHHHHHHHH :(
this is gonna be a LONG ENTRY. about reflections, guilt.
sigh. lemme say this.
CLUBBING IS NOT STH BAD.
i admit tht it's ADDICTIVE.
but it WILL NOT affect your studies.
(eg CELINE, she clubs A LOT, but she managed t get L1R5 7 for Common Test)
time mangement comes in then. :)
sigh. im not SOME PARTY ANIMAL.

whenever we hear RNB SONGS, we'll think of dancing and when we danced we think of clubbing.
okay.

chatted with GINA-CUTIE YTD TILL 5AM.
i came back SUPER EARLY YTD.
2am. and yeah. i chatted with gina at the swimming pool thr.
confided in her ALOT.

RAHHHHHH. family matters,
like what jovene said "TAGBOARD IS TH ONLY WAY WE TWO COMMUNICATE"
fuck. it's a sudden reflection and guilt.
EVERYDAY, i get home around 4am. or maybe even 5am t 6am.
i get a quick shower and i off i go t bed.
i dont even get t see my parent's face lest my siblings.
and when i get up outta bed, they're not at home,
and when i go out agn, (3pm) they're not back.

i swear i've not seen all of the 4 faces for 1 one week already!
sigh. oh then you ask "THEN HOW DO U GET MONEY JOR?"
my parents'd leave the cash on the table. AND IT'S ON TH DINING TABLE.

alright. they do call occassionally t check on me.
but i could feel the sadness and disappointment in my MOTHER.
she said this once over th phone
"you've not been eating home food for more than a month"
"i've not seen your presence in this house for a long time"
"i miss your sweeet face and fuss that you make everyday"
I DIDNT CARE ABOUT ALL THESE. UNTIL JOVENE SAID THT SENTENCE.

my mother and i communicate through SMS.
JORBEL AND I DONT EVEN COMMUNICATE.
(and yes, tears starts t flow down my cheeks)

and wonder how i show my love?
or rather express my love t them?
i buy my dad's favourite WHAMPOA bread home.
i buy loaves and loaves of them. but i dont get t eat them (it's alright)

everyday's NIGHTLIFE
i swear i'm not gonna enjoy POLY LIFE.
fuckit. i hate poly since the very start of me hearing it's name.

and yes. those unknown readers out there.
GO AHEAD OKAY.
GO SPREAD RUMOURS AGAIN.
gina = RUMOURS ARE STATEMENTS THAT HAS NO HEAD NO TAIL.
FUCK YOU ALL.

ginaCUTIE was disappointed when she knew that i kept many things from her.
cos we used t share DIRTY LITTLE SERCRETS.
i'm sorry yeah cutie.
at least we caught up alot ytd.
i'll tell u even the dirtiest secret k.
though u've know alr. it's W_______. hahaha.